Drumroll Please.....The Test Results Are In

I've been thinking about how I would start this post for a week now, hopefully i can convey what I mean well.

For the last two months I thought I was surely pregnant because of an absence of two menstrual cycles. Yet, I never had a positive at-home pregnancy test. Last week, I visited my primary care physician to find out what was going on with my body. Her initial diagnosis without any tests was Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome(PCOS) based upon the symptoms I had. She took some blood for some tests to rule out anything else that might be causing an absence of menstruation and the results came back today. Everything came back negative. I don't have any thyroid or kidney problems, nor do I have diabetes and I am grateful for that. So her conclusion was PCOS. I might have had this years but never knew it.

PCOS is when many small benign cysts grow on the ovaries causing irregular or even absent menstruation. It also causes problems with hormones. Women with PCOS often have an increased androgen hormone like testestorone. That increase causes excessive facial hair growth and acne. Other symptoms include, weight gain, hair thinning on top of the head, and even an increased risk of developing Type 2 diabetes. Because of the irregularity/absence of menstruation, there is also irregular or absent ovulation. So now that you've all gotten a biology lesson, this is what I have.

I have had a lot of these symptoms since the onset of puberty at age 12. But just recently was the absence of menstruation one of them. It feels good to know that I am not just a freak with very dark facial hair but there is an actual biological reason. However, what I wasn't prepared for is the fact that it probably will be hard for me to conceive again without medical intervention. Imagine my reaction as a 22-year-old that I would likely need medically intervention to get pregnant again. I was in shock to find that infertility would be an issue. Frankly, Morgan and I have been trying to get pregnant for a couple months now and I thought I would have been pregnant with the first try. I was only off birth control pills less than a month when Lorraine was conceived so I thought it would be the same now.

So what now? I have a set of five progesterone pills to jumpstart my cycle again and hopefully that will do the trick. Morgan and I will keep trying to get pregnant and hopefully I will get pregnant without Clomid or some other super ovulatory drug. I am going to try and lose the 25 pounds I put on over the last 5-6 months. Hopefully, my body will just regulate itself again. Even though this is not what I wanted to hear, I am glad that I finally found out what is going on with my body. I am grateful that I know what I need to do. I just need to get to work and do what needs to be done.