A Brief Absence

I am taking a break from blogging for a while. Most of you who read this already know that I've been having a lot of difficulties in my personal life. I will try to post pictures of Lorraine every now and then....Wish everyone well with their New Year!

Here are some more pictures from the photo shoot in October. More will be coming but I can only upload them one at time.....dunno why?

New Family Photos

Last Saturday, we went to Washington and Lee campus with a couple of student photographers. They had offered to take photos for our family in August, and I finally took them up on it. I don't know much about photography but I think they did a very professional job! Thanks Chris and Kenni!

Should I or Shouldn't I

On Friday night was the Homecoming Concert in which both Morgan and I played. Since it was combined with both choirs, the orchestra portion was only 20ish minutes long. So I decided to bring Lorraine. I made arrangements with someone ahead of time to watch her during our portion of the concert. Right as the concert was starting Lorraine decided to walk in front of the stage, because the person's daughter was watching Lorraine at the moment and didn't have enough sense not to let her do that. I am not mad at the girl, nor her parents. But today, I got reprimanded for bringing my daughter to the concert. I was basically told I needed to get a sitter for the next concert and Lorraine was not to come. That really hurt me because during the rest of the concert I was told that she was very good. I know that her attention span is small but I also knew that she could sit through our portion of the concert. I also feel as though I was unfairly singled out. There were other children at the concert that seemed to me more disruptive than Lorraine. I wasn't out in the audience but I never heard her from the stage, but I definitely heard other children/babies. So my question to you is....should I or shouldn't I have brought Lorraine.

Snugglie!

Lorraine absolutely loves to snuggle up with blankets. We play peek-a-boo all the time with her and she never gets sick of playing the game. Here are some pics from our recent game.

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On the other post of today, I was going through a spell of out of control hormones. I realized with the help of my hubby that I probably was just really hormonal because I should be getting my period soon. SO don't worry about the last post :)

I feel the need to vent. I feel like a utter failure today. I bombed a piano test, couldn't get a thing right in aural skills, burned food, yelled at my husband and daughter, looked around my house to see every single room a complete disaster. I just feel awful. I can't do anything right. I can't provide any support financially to my family. I can't keep up with anything. I'm fat. I'm unattractive. I just hate myself right now. I can't do anything right. I just can't do anything right.

10 Honest Traits

I've been tagged to give 10 Honest Traits. So here it goes, I hope it is informative and interesting.

1. I love being a Mom! I was going to finish school and get started in my career before we began our family. I still want to be an orchestra teacher but I love being a Mom. I love when I get to stay home with Lorraine and play. I love having my daughter around to teach me patience. I love loving someone that much. I can't wait to have more children to join our family....but I don't know when that will happen.

2. I am a very picky eater, although, I've gotten better as I've gotten older. I hate so many foods it's ridiculous and I only like certain food items with certain food items. I.E.- I love fresh made salsa with lots of tomatoes, onions, cilantro, lemon, lime, etc. But I hate tomatoes and onions on my sandwich. I know it's weird but hey that's just me.

3. I am dreading my senior recital. I'm really worried that I am not advanced enough to play an upper-level college recital. I do not enjoy practicing because I get frustrated very easily. Plus, my life is so crazy that I don't have more than an hour, maybe two hours, a day to practice.

4. I am a highly disorganized person. I have been for my entire life. I can GET organized but it is so hard for me to STAY organized.

5. I habitually take on way too much and then give myself ulcers (well sometimes it feels like I give myself ulcers) trying to keep up with it all. Most of the time I have to drop something to make me less stressed.

6. I am naturally talented in learning about music but not actually applying it. I.E.- I can ace a music theory or music history exam but fail an aural skills (ear training). It is so contradictory. Oh and here is a kicker, I play viola which means that most of the part is harmony, very seldom do we actually get the melody, but I CANNOT for the life of me sing anything other than melody. It's rather annoying to me.

7. I am a very insecure person about my appearance. For a very long time, I have dealt with severe acne, dark facial and body hair, and stretch marks. The acne and hair are part of a biological problem, called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. However, the stretch marks on the other hand came at the end of middle school when I grew 6-8 inches in the matter of months. The result was that my skin couldn't handle the change and developed stretch marks on my inner thighs, ugh! Now that I've gained 25 lbs I am very insecure of my personal appearance. I am working to loose that weight though.

8. I am a very unmotivated and even somewhat lazy but also very active too. I get in funks where all I can do is sit on the couch. But on the next day, I will be running around all day and enjoying all the errands. I don't know how to explain it any better.

9. I love to listen to people's life stories. I love to hear how they grew up and what made them who they are. I love to listen to people's struggles just so that they can vent and get things off their chests. I love to help people get through emotional struggles. I am considering going into the military as a mental health assistant because I think I could help those going through so much mental disturbance because of what they've lived through, whether it be soldiers or spouses/family of loved ones lost. However, the training would take me away from my family for a good 6-8 months which is a big reason against going for it.

10. I have never been nor ever will be a social butterfly. I much prefer to have a few very close friends than have a hundred acquaintances. I never seem to get along with the social butterflies either. In fact, I had move out of my first room of college because I couldn't get along with my social butterfly roomates. Whenever I think of that situation it makes me cringe still.

Well, I hope this was fun to read! It definitely was fun to write.

Blast from the Past......

This is a progression of pictures as Lorraine got older. It's so amazing to me to see how little she once was. It seems almost unreal that she once wasn't talking or walking. I miss these days!

May 2008June 2008July 2008July 2008July 2008August 2008October 2008November 2008April 2009


I just cannot believe how much she has grown. She was so cute then but much cuter now. I don't know which age I like better, the more self-sufficient toddler or the ever cute infant. She wasn't a fussy babe so I really liked those days when she wasn't mobile and couldn't get into much trouble.